There are times in our lives when God out of his justice and love needs to discipline us. he sees in us, in our flesh the things that need to die. Attitudes, feeling, thoughts that need to come under His submission. God takes us through this disciplinary process to carve out our heart for Him and His purpose. During this time of discipline, out of Hi love of us He still desires to be gracious to us. He desires to show us unmerited favor. God knows that to have us closer to Him more of our flesh has to be carved out to make our heart reflect Him.
Isaiah 30:18 says, “Yet, the lord longs to be gracious to you, He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him.” He sees us in our current state and desires for us to continually come closer and closer to Him. He speaks to us and shows us the areas that we need to surrender to Him, areas that need to be carved out of our heart(unforgiveness, pride). Then He patiently waits for us to respond. Longing to be gracious to us and rise in compassion.
As I am currently going through chemotherapy for breast cancer I can easily come to God with needs and not an open heart to be changed. I continually desire every day that my heart is surrendered to God and that I can hear Him speak to me about the areas of my heart that need to be carved out or surrendered. No matter the season you find yourself in allow God to speak to you about the change He desires.
As we surrender to this work of God we are changed. In this transformation we are closer to God because less flesh is in the way. We have spent time waiting on God to show us what needs to be carved out of our heart or surrendered. At the same time He was waiting patiently for us. Our time is in His hands and blessed are those that wait on Him.
No matter what our current situation physically or spiritually looks like God longs to be gracious to us. That is His desire.